Sometimes I lie to myself because it’s the only way to do a thing I want to do. If I focus on how hard the thing will be, how scary it seems, I’d stay stuck in place forever. I’ve been tricking my anxiety for years, and mostly I think I win. I may feel like a failure inside my screwed-up brain, but I’m still moving forward. I might not feel the achievements as they occur, but they do exist. I hope one day I can celebrate my successes, but I’m not going to wait for that day. I choose to live, too.
Marisa Siegel, in today's Daily Rumpus Email: An Uphill Climb to I'm Not Sure Where